an adult

I had lunch with my mom yesterday. We have done this only one time before. She said something to me that stuck in my mind and touched my heart.  She said:

“No matter what you choose in your life, I will support you and stand beside you.” 

Knowing that my mother, whose opinion matters deeply, loves and supports me no matter what. She said along with that later that night, when I called and thanked her, said:

“Your kids will do whatever they feel is right no matter what when they are older 

so I need to stand by them.” 

I have gotten closer to my mother over the past few years. Especially this last year. It finally feels like we are equal adults, and able to talk without me feeling like a child anymore. It is a blessing to feel the support of my decisions, even though I would decide what I thought was right without approval. We all have to follow our hearts and guts and pray for the guidance along our own personal journeys.

Being confident in yourself, and your God leading your path, knowing that you are doing what is best for you, your family, your loved ones, is what matters.

Taking each day at a time. Not worrying. Loving completely. Laugh. Pray. Encourage. Forgive. Motivate yourself. Take time for You. Dance. Live. Be silent. Be loud. Be You. Give Kindness. Help others when you see a need. Be Chivalrous. Sing too loud. Be happy you have air in your lungs and a day to live to its fullest.

“See others for what and who they Are

Not for what You want them to be”

I write at random times

Sometimes I wish I could turn it off…but I know it’s there for a reason. Most of those times I do not have a pen or light…like at 4:30 in the morning when my brain is spinning stories and tall tales and I do not want to get up and disturb the pigs and boyfriend in the bed. Then lo and behold when I do drag my butt out of bed they are gone. I think of all the amazing things I have written in the middle of the night, while driving, walking, planting flowers… I used to carry a journal with me everywhere I went but have failed to do that for years. I bought a journal at the book store and think I will shove it in the car with me to get back into the habit. It is healthy for me, writing has always been a way to say all the words that float around in my head all day like a crazy little tornado gathering letters and words each passing moment. That crap needs to leave and I can’t say it out loud…it just doesn’t work that way for me. I am not the greatest public or private speaker. Unless I really know what I m talking about then it is easy…like flowers. But that’s all I really have right now as far as strengths. Okay confession…new favorite song is “Stolen Dance” by Milky Chance. I don’t know why but I m liking it a lot.

my night is coming to an end. see you on the flip side bright screen and little black keys. thanks for always being there when a pen isn’t handy.

~Write and Explore~

Is it summer yet??

Is it summer yet?? Because I could use some continual sunshine blasting onto my skin. Good ol natural vitamin D! Happy little rays bouncing off my face!  

The way the sun is shining this morning and the brightness of the morning makes me feel like it should be 60 degrees and warm out already. But to my unfortunate dismay it is freaking cold out there and still slightly winter…Sigh..How many weeks left?! Well when you live in Idaho winter can last as long as it pleases, and without warning it can snow at any time too! Even in the middle of spring it isn’t unlikely.

As I walked the kids to the bus stop this morning the woods called my name! The crisp air-filled my lungs speaking of trails untraveled and awaiting adventures to be had. I actually found my self singing “Oh what a beautiful morning! Oh what a beautiful day! I have a wonderful feeling, everythings going my waaayyy!”   I am aware I am a dork 😉 but some days just calls for an outburst in song! At least I didn’t do the “Sound of music” interlude and spin with my arms out as I crossed the lawn. 🙂

So I sit here gazing out the window looking at the clean blue sky wishing my boyfriend was off of work so we could go shooting in the woods and go for a hike down our favorite trails. I love it that he has the same drive and passion for the outdoors that I have. When we go camping we are completely in our element. Raw pure nature…simplistic quiet and perfect. It is our absolute zen place.

May Spring be quick to arrive and full of warm rains. May the flowers bloom brilliantly and the grass go lush and green. Let Summer arrive with the warmth of a freshly awakened sun, sharing its golden rays of invigorating light with us all.

A toast to summer! *clink* May your day be bright and beautiful!