I will attempt this with my pig on my lap…
There are so many things running through my head at the same time now it is hard to get the straight. Today is a big day, my daughter turns 10…double digits. Wow 🙂 I need to write and get this out so I can have a semi clear, as clear as it gets these days, head for her. She deserves to have her mom in one roughly formed ball of emotions.
I was thinking about my emotions, my heart and how much I love. I have so many emotions inside this oddly shaped frame of mine. Trying to understand them all is like trying to unwind a giant, knotted, tightly wound ball of yarn that is full of frayed edges and multi-colored threads. So help me God if it comes unraveled for the wrong, negative reasons…look out. It is like a shit storm of anger, I turn red behind the eyes and have a hard time holding the lid on my mouth. Which I have gotten very good at over the years. On the other, less scary hand, is the caring compassionate loving side of my emotions. There are so many layers that it would take a lot longer than the time I have at the moment to dissect.
The loving side of my emotions and heart is huge and not as complicated to get around. She is a total other being inside of me. And when she loves you, she loves you with all of her heart, that is until you break it. She will give you everything and anything you need to be happy. Her love does not end and needs very little to stay healthy and full. Simple gestures of affection, a few words of kindness, tell her you love her each day, hug her or hold her showing her that she is important to you and is your number one.
This inner entity is very a special and important part of women, each woman. And if is treated right you will reap great rewards of unconditional unfading love, support, respect and admiration. We admire a man who knows how to treat a woman. We respect a man who cares about our feelings and well being. We honor and devote ourselves to the man that shows us that we matter…all of our crazy parts. All we want is to feel comfortable in our own skin around you. And that does require work on both parts. The woman need to be confident in who she is and strong enough to not care what the world thinks of her. And the man needs to understand that we need daily reassurance that we are yours and yours alone. That is done by the simple acts above. The kind words, hugs, saying I love you. It shouldn’t be work to do this for your love. If you want to eventually lose her…don’t do those things. If you want to keep her, do them. We really are not that complicated of animals. We want to love you, and be loved by you.
This article is a good one. I suggest reading it. How to Lose the Woman you Love for Good.